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I know I always talk about how much I hate school.. I think it's bc I don't (or didn't rather) know what I want (wanted) to do for the rest of my life. All through high school I knew what I wanted, but then I graduated and then I had no idea. Awesome. So I've been going back and forth since then. Since I was going to SMC though, it didn't really matter considering the fact that I was mainly taking gen eds and working towards my associates in science. NOW though, I need to know what I want to do bc I'm at the point where I should be taking those specific classes for my bachelor's.



So, my original plan was to come here (Western) for aviation maintenance. Although, what I really wanted to do was flight science but EVERYONE always told me there was a height requirement. So, maintenance it is. Besides the fact that it sounds super boring and not at all what I wanted to do. There I was just hating school, not wanting to do what I was doing. I was all sorts of confused. Just a few days ago I talked to a girl I know (Becky, she's pretty cool if you ask me) and she said that height requirements are more for military flying. Earlier this fall (to make a long story short) I was emailing the dean of aviation about the whole height requirement thing and he suggested trying out an CRJ simulator to check my sitting height. So, after I talked to Becky I got to thinking that maybe I would take him up on that offer.

So today I went to Battle Creek to sit in some planes and check out the CRJ simulator.. Turns out that I'm tall enough! Even in the planes where the rutters don't adjust. How exciting?! So I'm switching my major from aviation maintenance to flight science. I'm scheduled for spring classes and all that good stuff.

Hopefully now that I have a purpose I'll like school a bit more. And hopefully I'll be getting some better teachers! (I did mean what I said about the worthless teachers here at Western.. they suck) But anyway, I am soo excited!! You have no idea how fun it was to even just get in the planes and sit! Oh and the flight simulators are unbelievable! I wish you all could have been there with me to see it. But anyway, that's my update..

This my 3rd time attempt at this post! I'm going to get it done!! I have had so much on my mind lately.. There are zillion things I want to share with all of you (the very few that happen to read this that is..). Today I've been thinking about how much things have changed. I gotta admit, I'm not a big fan of change. You think you have everything figured out and then you turn around only to realize that everything is completely different! It's a pain in the ass, lemme tell ya'.

Seriously though, I've changed so much since high school. Not just my life in general, but personally too. I felt as though I was pretty nice back then, but of course, that's just what I thought. I'd hate to think of what people REALLY thought of me.. Ha, Idk. But I did try. Once you get out of high school you realize there are so many other things to worry about. Life is suddenly yours. You thought you had real responsibility when you finally got to pick your own high school classes. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! If only that's all I had to worry about now..

But back to the changes.. The friends you thought you would stay close to after high school move on with their lives. The security in knowing that you didn't HAVE to know what you wanted to do with the rest of your life no longer exists. Even though all of this sounds depressing, it isn't. If you were anything like me, you didn't think anything could get any better than high school. But then I graduated and life was a billion times better! You find out who your REAL friends are and realize that those are the ones who REALLY matter. You start to mold your own life. Life on your own starts after high school. You can choose to do anything.. Work instead of going to school. Go to school and choose which path in life you want to take. (I think a mosquito was just gnawing on my leg..)

I don't really know what I'm getting at. All I know is that right now, I love my life. Yes I've gone through huge changes, especially in the past year, but I've handle them well. I miss my friends. GOD I MISS MY FRIENDS! We've all began to start our own lives and that makes it difficult, ya know?? I miss my mom, and whole family for that matter. Oh how I miss my cat.. I miss not paying bills or having to worry if there's enough toilet paper. However, I do LOVE living on my own. I do love making new friends and still having the old. But the change that I love most is the person I've become (Ok, that sounds self-centered.. but you'll understand in a minute) I'm not sure about the type of person I was back in high school, or even the year or so after. But now I know I'm a good person. I try so hard to be the best person I can. I love and care for people so easily. I want EVERYONE (even you reading this) to know that they don't deserve to be judged, or looked down on; that they deserve the absolute best in life; that they are beautiful; and more than anything, they deserve to be LOVED. And if noone else will, I will. And that's why my personal change is the change I love most.

Anyway.. Sorry this is so deep! I told you I had alot on my mind lately. I swear all of these won't be like that. I'm going to go now and watch some funny videos on youtube.. Or go wake Codey up! Hope you liked readind :]

the very 1st one..

I am so excited to start a blog! I really don't have any time right now to make this thing all fancy, but hopefully some time soon. This should be fun.. For me atleast. I hope you'll have fun reading too!! I can't believe I'm going to cut my first blog short, but I have too too much homework. I've been procrastinating all too often lately and I hate having to catch up. I'll start blogging after tomorrow! (Why tomorrow?? Long day of school + homework between classes + test + studying for Wednesday's physics quiz = no time for anything else!) Anyway, have a good night (and day tomorrow) everyone!!